tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3164515774162371836.post1545030445888165992..comments2023-05-13T06:43:44.602-05:00Comments on Cotton Socks: Feeling discouraged.CottonSockshttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12985852348250115996noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3164515774162371836.post-11326579528099952502010-01-25T05:14:48.393-06:002010-01-25T05:14:48.393-06:00why it matters about 2010 being a potential due da...why it matters about 2010 being a potential due date? i get that. it's the thought of getting to New Year's Eve and feeling like the entirety of the last year has been wasted. I already feel like every year since getting with my husband has, in childbearing terms, been one gigantic waste of time. <br /><br />it matters. i think i understand.<br /><br />last year i got to the stage where we either needed to start trying, or accept that it was never going to happen for us. and back then, i would've been ok with that. but now. having seen my first child on that screen at nearly 12 weeks. watching it moving around so very much. having loved it without reserve and abandon. i have to try again. i have to give this my best shot. but already, i'm terrified that history will repeat and lightning will destroy me once more.<br /><br />but i still have to try again.<br /><br />all i'm trying to say is, i can relate.Bethhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12523875341438470968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3164515774162371836.post-60115875771296333242010-01-25T01:07:23.945-06:002010-01-25T01:07:23.945-06:00I'm the kind of realist who used to throw arou...I'm the kind of realist who used to throw around the phrase, "my worst fear is blah blah blah." Now, I've learned that I can fret and worry over a million horrible possibilities, but I don't even want to know what my worst fear is. I likely don't know it yet. And that starts a whole loop of dangerous thoughts playing in my head about losing my husband, my son, my mom, my sister....all of them. Who knows. I guess this probably isn't helping much. But, anyway, you're not alone in your thoughts. I'm hoping you've realized your worst fears and you will successfully carry a pregnancy to term and deliver a healthy baby. I know I've been lurking and rooting for that. By the way, I, too, have a false time constraint on myself of 2010 for my next living baby. This is the first time I've said it "out loud" because I don't think I realized it until I read it on your blog. Wishing you better days ahead.Rebeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03555672583756632794noreply@blogger.com