Can you keep a secret?

I won't tell you if you can't.

And I'm very serious. I want to talk about this here, but I don't want to talk about it everywhere.

If you can't keep it quiet, then don't read further and maybe don't check back for a couple of weeks.

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I got a positive test last night.

I'll give you a moment to squeal, gasp, cheer, or nod sagely.

Back with me again? Great!

It was a Target brand. It was a blue line, very faint, but there. I stared at it for hours. Of course, this was necessitated by the fact that that the other two tests were negative. Hrm. And of course, blue due tests can be less reliable.

I was cautiously optimistic, and hoped that it would be positive all around this morning. I had determined not to take my temp this morning, because I was concerned about a drop and a freakout.

Then came the storm. Massive storm that sat on top of us for about 3 hours. It woke us up with a bolt of lightning and clap of thunder that rattled the windows about 4 am. I couldn't really get back to sleep - the continuing storm, the anticipation, the nerves, I don't know. I dozed, but I gave in about 4:45 and took my temp. It was 97.9 - which adjusts to 98.07. I finally got up and peed in a cup and returned to bed and dozed until normal temp time of 5:30. I then temped again and it was 98.1. Granted, I'd gotten up and moved around, but it was in line with the other temps, so I recorded it as 98.1.

Finally came downstairs (hoping to find work was closed - alas no such luck), and brought my trusty cup of pee in hand. Took the FRER and waited with held breath and . . . there was a shadow of a line, but not pink and not really there without twisting and turning. Humph. Took a digital, knowing the outcome. And sure enough - Not Pregnant. The internet cheapie had what I thought was a faint line, but I wasn't sure.

Boooooo.

Watched the rain and news coverage, realized we are pretty much flooded in. Our immediate area is ok, but our alternate route to work is blocked by flooding and the main route has high water on the highway and the traffic is backed up and the drive time is over an hour to get about halfway there. And there is no way around it. So we sat and waited (this has caused drama and anger with DH's boss, but whatever). BTW, Dh agreed the Target test was a positive and agreed he saw the line on the cheapie.

Eventually I went to shower and decided that since it had been 4 hours since the last test, I'd give it another go before we left. So I did and this time - faint but pink line on FRER. It's super faint, but it's definitely there. And a clear light pink line on the cheapie.

I expect a digital to tell me good things tonight or tomorrow morning.

I think I'm knocked up, y'all. I'm sort of in shock and actually pretty happy about things. Though definitely scared and afraid of what will happen next. I am asking everyone to keep it to themselves. I'm not hiding it - obviously, or I wouldn't post it on a public blog that is linked to public places - but I am not ready to come out about it. Until we see an u/s with a heartbeat, I intend to be pretty low key. I ask everyone to respect that, and appreciate any good thoughts for a healthy, sticking, growing baby.

This is wild. I am all kinds of crampy, but my nausea is ever present and my boobs are terribly sore. I love it.