So I had what I thought was a positive test.
But apparently not after all.
Today my temp dropped and I'm spotting. My period is due tomorrow. It seems pretty clear to me what the answer is.
I am so unhappy right now.
And to make it all worse, Mother's Day is this weekend. I can't get away from the fucking ads. The morning show on the radio station was all women calling in to say what they want.
I just want my baby back, alive and whole in my arms. And I can never ever have that.
And I'm not cautiously hoping for the next child. I'm facing this whole fucking nonsense all over again. I just want to crawl into bed and sob until I fall asleep. I feel so broken.