So I had what I thought was a positive test.
But apparently not after all.
Today my temp dropped and I'm spotting. My period is due tomorrow. It seems pretty clear to me what the answer is.
I am so unhappy right now.
And to make it all worse, Mother's Day is this weekend. I can't get away from the fucking ads. The morning show on the radio station was all women calling in to say what they want.
I just want my baby back, alive and whole in my arms. And I can never ever have that.
And I'm not cautiously hoping for the next child. I'm facing this whole fucking nonsense all over again. I just want to crawl into bed and sob until I fall asleep. I feel so broken.
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I'm so sorry. It's not fair and it's not right. Sending you big hugs.
Ugh, I am so sorry.
I'm sorry hon. Hugs & hugs.
Oh honey. Words aren't even good enough right now.
I love you. I'm so sorry. I would give anything in this world to make this shit go away.
I work in a call center and some asshole wished me a Happy Mother's day when he got off the phone. Who does that??? I'm sorry that this cycle is over for you - praying that there are not many left until you see a positive.
Eliza, I'm so, so sorry sweetheart.
Wish I could magic you over to the UK so that (a) I could meet you and (b) you could hide out here until Mother's Day is over. xo
hugs - i'm sorry. it's not fair for you
So sorry! This can all seem so unfair & cruel at times. I can't say anything to make you feel better. Wishing you tons of luck on this journey.
From one DBM to another... ((HUGS))
I'm so sorry--for everything that's happened and the pain you continue to feel.
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