Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Feeling alone today.

I don't know what it is or why. Maybe some mild depression, as I do have that now and again.

But I feel really separated and really alone right now. I feel like I'm constantly saying the wrong thing and doing the wrong thing. I feel down on myself for things not being perfect and feel like I could be and should be doing better. I'm clearly being overly sensitive. A comment that was justified really hurt my feelings today.

I'm questioning a lot today, and not finding satisfactory answers. I just don't feel like a particularly good person or like a particularly nice person, though I do generally strive to be those things. I am just feeling I'm in a good place right now.

I plan to have my tattoo done tomorrow, but after telling a friend, they said something that shook me and is making me question my decision. Now I feel uncertain, and that is contributing to the funk I feel tonight.

Just a lot of not very happy thoughts swirling around and no one to express them to, I guess.


Tasa_ said...

What were you planning on getting as your tattoo?

Tasa_ said...

You can delete my previous comment if you'd like.
I just read your older posts about your tattoo that you wanted, and I think its a great idea. I don't know what your friend said - but I think it would be really nice.
I'm sorry for everything that you've gone through - and hopefully things will start to get better.

Mrs. MooMoo said...

Well POO over the comment that is getting you down today. And Poo about the funk you are in and uncertainty of getting your tattoo.

Get your bad thoughts out here so you don't go to sleep with them.

Simple wishes to you!!!

Dawn~a~Bon said...