I don't know what it is or why. Maybe some mild depression, as I do have that now and again.
But I feel really separated and really alone right now. I feel like I'm constantly saying the wrong thing and doing the wrong thing. I feel down on myself for things not being perfect and feel like I could be and should be doing better. I'm clearly being overly sensitive. A comment that was justified really hurt my feelings today.
I'm questioning a lot today, and not finding satisfactory answers. I just don't feel like a particularly good person or like a particularly nice person, though I do generally strive to be those things. I am just feeling I'm in a good place right now.
I plan to have my tattoo done tomorrow, but after telling a friend, they said something that shook me and is making me question my decision. Now I feel uncertain, and that is contributing to the funk I feel tonight.
Just a lot of not very happy thoughts swirling around and no one to express them to, I guess.