Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Can you keep a secret?

I won't tell you if you can't.

And I'm very serious. I want to talk about this here, but I don't want to talk about it everywhere.

If you can't keep it quiet, then don't read further and maybe don't check back for a couple of weeks.

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I got a positive test last night.

I'll give you a moment to squeal, gasp, cheer, or nod sagely.

Back with me again? Great!

It was a Target brand. It was a blue line, very faint, but there. I stared at it for hours. Of course, this was necessitated by the fact that that the other two tests were negative. Hrm. And of course, blue due tests can be less reliable.

I was cautiously optimistic, and hoped that it would be positive all around this morning. I had determined not to take my temp this morning, because I was concerned about a drop and a freakout.

Then came the storm. Massive storm that sat on top of us for about 3 hours. It woke us up with a bolt of lightning and clap of thunder that rattled the windows about 4 am. I couldn't really get back to sleep - the continuing storm, the anticipation, the nerves, I don't know. I dozed, but I gave in about 4:45 and took my temp. It was 97.9 - which adjusts to 98.07. I finally got up and peed in a cup and returned to bed and dozed until normal temp time of 5:30. I then temped again and it was 98.1. Granted, I'd gotten up and moved around, but it was in line with the other temps, so I recorded it as 98.1.

Finally came downstairs (hoping to find work was closed - alas no such luck), and brought my trusty cup of pee in hand. Took the FRER and waited with held breath and . . . there was a shadow of a line, but not pink and not really there without twisting and turning. Humph. Took a digital, knowing the outcome. And sure enough - Not Pregnant. The internet cheapie had what I thought was a faint line, but I wasn't sure.

Boooooo.

Watched the rain and news coverage, realized we are pretty much flooded in. Our immediate area is ok, but our alternate route to work is blocked by flooding and the main route has high water on the highway and the traffic is backed up and the drive time is over an hour to get about halfway there. And there is no way around it. So we sat and waited (this has caused drama and anger with DH's boss, but whatever). BTW, Dh agreed the Target test was a positive and agreed he saw the line on the cheapie.

Eventually I went to shower and decided that since it had been 4 hours since the last test, I'd give it another go before we left. So I did and this time - faint but pink line on FRER. It's super faint, but it's definitely there. And a clear light pink line on the cheapie.

I expect a digital to tell me good things tonight or tomorrow morning.

I think I'm knocked up, y'all. I'm sort of in shock and actually pretty happy about things. Though definitely scared and afraid of what will happen next. I am asking everyone to keep it to themselves. I'm not hiding it - obviously, or I wouldn't post it on a public blog that is linked to public places - but I am not ready to come out about it. Until we see an u/s with a heartbeat, I intend to be pretty low key. I ask everyone to respect that, and appreciate any good thoughts for a healthy, sticking, growing baby.

This is wild. I am all kinds of crampy, but my nausea is ever present and my boobs are terribly sore. I love it.

28 comments:

Mrs. Jenna said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I mean....(awesome!).

My lips and fingers are sealed.

JACQUELYN said...

HOLY CRAP!! That is great news! My fingers, toes, and eyes are crossed for darker lines and a "pregnant" digital.

xxx
mrsmacias

MrsPreppyPeshke said...

Yeah!! Congrats!! Crap that means I need to test in the morning. I have been stalking your blog and you are a day ahead of me in terms of DPO. I mentally was thinking that I'll hold out until you test.

Alyssa said...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! YAY!!!

Buckin said...

OMG...over the moon right now for you.

Kittybits said...

YAY! I mean... *nods sagely*
Great news.

Stephanie said...

eeep!!!

Rachel said...

Oh, Eas. I'm so close to crying. I'm SO SO happy for you. Target brand are amongst the LEAST sensitive from what I've seen. I cannot wait until you get some really strong lines! CONGRATULATIONS!

Rebecca said...

I knew it! Congrats!! Becky19

Molly said...

This made me smile... fingers crossed!!!

E_Sharp said...

Congratulations!!
When do you think you'll make the news known in that cyberplace we both frequent?

CottonSocks said...

E-sharp - I'll probably let people know after the beta draws, but maybe not until after the first u/s. I haven't spoken to my midwife yet - she prefers to do betas after a miss period, which, uh, isn't yet - but based on what I've seen and what I'll request, I should have an u/s between 6 and 7 weeks, so in about 3 weeks. Provided the betas rise normally.

Thank you ALL for the good wishes. I'm in such a good mood, it's hard to concentrate right now!

CottonSocks said...

Oh, beta draws should be next week. I'm anticipating a Monday/Wednesday draw and possibly a Friday draw. But I'll know more for certain after I call Friday, which is the point at which a period is late for me.

I'm not trying to hide it - or I'm doing a VERY bad job - just not get people too excited until we know more.

Ibis said...

Yay!! Congratulations!

NikkiFudgestick said...

I'm so happy for you. I really am. This post was just what I was hoping it was and it made me well up a little bit.

Jessica Loves Trevor said...

Congratulations!!! I wish you the VERY best of luck!

weelass said...

:squeals quietly:

Congrats Eas! fingers crossed!!!

Abigail said...

I've been following your blog (linked from The Bump) for a while now and I am so so so so happy for you! The past couple of days I just had "a feeling" about your posts. BIG BIG BIG Congratulations!

Jen Wargo said...

OMG yay, I had a good feeling for you this month.

shotzie said...

Squeeeee! Congratulations, eas! I hope all is smooth sailing from here on out!

SweetSpikette said...

congrats!!!!

Kelly said...

Congrats!!

CathyMD said...

Congrats!

Absolutely delighted for you.

CathyMD

Patricia said...

Oh, I hope, hope, hope it's true!!!! I'll keep my fingers crossed while lurking at that cyberplace you frequent so much.

Elaine said...

I knew it!! When I stalked your chart earlier this morning, I saw your temp went up, but you hadn't put in the BFP info yet. Congratulations! I'm so excited for you!

Jay said...

::wispers::
wooooohooo!

PSUWifey said...

Congrats! I love following your blog...sticky baby dust raining from above for you!

Mrs. MooMoo said...

YIPPEEEEEEE from reading your previous posts...I was hoping so bad for you!!! So happy!!! Congrats girlie!