Tuesday, April 14, 2009

I feel tired.

Just in general. Physically, emotionally. Tired, drained. I'm having another 'my best doesn't seem to be good enough' days and they suck.

I hope I ovulated. I have no idea whether or not I did. I'm debating about dinner and how we want to deal with it, given our lack of groceries. Inexpensively would be good, but I just don't feel like I have the energy to go to the store tonight (maybe tomorrow?).

Le sigh.

I feel like I'm losing my tenuous grip on sanity with my dogged devotion to getting knocked up. What if it doesn't happen this cycle? Will I go insane? What if it does and I miscarry again? Will I lose it entirely? The questions are beginning to swirl again and I can't find an off button. How exhausting.

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