Monday, December 29, 2008

Or not, whatevs.

Yeah. Test still positive - as positive as yesterday. Digital says Pregnant and it said it pretty quickly.

It took deep breaths through the beginning of a panic attack, but I called and requested more bloodwork. They should get back to me later. Joy.

I hate feeling this stupid and vulnerable. But there it is. I need to know. Bloodwork could help clear some things up. Needs to be done.

I am dreading it so much. I cannot tell you how much I fear this. It's just b/w. It doesn't change what is in my bloodstream or alter the course of this pregnancy, whenever it is fated to end. But it still terrifies me.

They should call back at some point to let me know what is happening.

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